FRIENDSHIP...... I hastily zip around my room...to find a dictionary....n then i take a quick glance upon the alphabets.....m waiting for an "F" to appear....Yeah i find it...But..."friendship".. the word i seek is not in sight...There are all sorts of words...ranging from fable to facility, family, fantasy, foolish, freedom..........uhhh and finally here it is-"FRIENDSHIP"....According to the oxford dictionary...friendship is a bond of mutual affection......I close the book at once n think abt the essence of friendship in my life......The first person who comes into my mind is HER...She has been my best friend since ages......i met her first way back in the 5th standard....we weren't the kinda friends who click instantly.... but thr was something which drew us so close....yeah we have been friends since so long....
We were friends when we used to run during the recess n play a game called land, sand , water, sea n mud:-)....we were friends wen we used to be in different sections, feelin a bit lonely but tryin to fit in....we were friends wen we used to write long long letters to each other even though the world found it so uncool....we were friends wen we had little ,tiny problems which seemed as big as mountains in those days...we were friends all the time we were growin up...all the time we were findin a definition for ourselves.....we were friends wen we used to make timetables to study for our exams....wen we used to discuss abt almost everythin...be it the latest trends, our friends' stupidities, our dreams n DELICIOUS FOOD......Yeah we have always been FRIENDS......even wen we used to stay awake all nite chattin wid each other...feelin matured...lol....n then sleepin every other day in scool at the last bench....we were friends wen we used to bunk some classes, eat our tiffins before recess n then stroll around GOLDY n laugh at her...wen we used to share each n every part of our lives wid each other....Huh...WE'VE BEEN THE STRONGEST PAIR IN THE UNIVERSE.......
There have been times wen she has wiped off my tears wid her words of comfort... wen she has made me feel important....wen she has made me laugh loudly even in sadness...this blog is for her....for my bestttt friend....for the person who has jumped wid joy in my happiness n cried out buckets wen i was sad.....Life is not easy....n things mite have changed between us....thr have been so many testing times in this innocent bond of ours....i know the past can never come back.....i know tht things cant be tht beautiful again....but i know tht i love her...n she loves me...The only thing i wanna say to u is tht..“I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.”
Now i dont need a dictionary to define friendship...coz for me the true meaning of friendship is HER......

Hmmm lets get on n write something.....got a chance to convey my feelings here...after a really long time........ohhhh i miss those days so much........ today what i intend to write here gonna be too informal for words....they'll jus portray my feelings, my smiles, my tears....very directly...very simply........
The world n its people....all seem to be strangers......we all have friends.....a family.....parents......but at the end of the day....everyone is a stranger......so the ups n downs of life.....the beautiful times.....the testing times.....all teach me that i need to know myself........ Have read somewhere-" Try to be yourself. Be very honest about who n what u are......If people like u....thats fine.....if they don't ......thats their problem. "

But its too tough to entrap such sayings in our minds...... the most prominent quality of a human is to be social.....we are always so concerned about what ppl would say....or how they would react....At times, these ppl...this society....these thoughts... make us forget our real selves..... Isn't it weird....Weird that we are not realising the truths behind our existence.....Weird that we are not yet sure about the essence of our lives.... No one knows what has to be changed..... all our ideas...thoughts...assumptions...are so faint...... The basic problem with we human beings is that.... we don't wanna think.....or may be we don't wanna do something about our own life....jus because our lives are controlled by what others say n the way they react..... Are we sure that it is our life????? No dreams, no interests.......we are jus surviving.....fighting to be ahead of everyone else...... workin day n night..... leading a life full of tensions, fears, frustrations......and huhhhhhh then after all this .... we don't have time to think...... think for the better of our soul n heart....... Then why does man still stand up..... high......reaching all the impossible destinations.....standin on the face of the moon n shouting....I AM THE WINNER.........
I wonder how can someone who has lost himself be a winner..... someone who has worked against his own interests....jus to gain what the world calls SUCCESS.......
Why can't we define success for ourselves...... where have we lost our innocence..... our smiles.....our soul.... For me.... eating an icecream on a cold rainy day.... can be the definition of success......for me facing struggles to make myself strong...can be success........For me failing once to achieve bigger next time.....can be success.
We just need to know what success means to us....we jus need to ponder on our own lives....n think....jus because at times....little things...... smaller moments...... n stupid thoughts can make us know what our happiness is....and then afterall happiness is synonymous with SUCCESS.....

" Don't stay away from the rising sun
Don't feel so scared of the rains;
Just try to smile with the shining moon
And find some cheers from ur pains.
Hold ur success tight in ur fist
Spread ur wings and fly....
Coz this would give u the freedom to think
N u'll stand up and try......"

"Hope is the hat rack upon which i hang my dreams"

'Someday all you will have to light your way will be a single ray of HOPE and that will be enough".....So true....I've always read such thoughts......almost everywhere.....books, newspapers, magazines, posters...... But then you can't believe in such things until and unless u come across the realities of life. I've always known the fact that life is not a bed of roses....but donno why... i always expected my life to be fine...good....great.....perfect. Happens with everyone...huh!!! In the past few months, I've understood life better. There were times when i had nothing...times when i had no one....times when i felt broken.....times when i lost myself......All through these times i just had a little ray of hope....Hope that time n again whispered in my ears that light gonna step in again.......But still...I was scared.....Had faced a lot....had felt the soft touch of my tears....the pain in my eyes when those drops of tears used to stream out....ENDLESSLY.....The smile that i had to stick on my face to hide my inner woes.....the emptiness....the ups n downs....n yet again...the HOPE....Today...when i look back to my life...when i ponder upon those times....unexpectedly i feel GOOD. I feel good about the ways life chose to teach me wat STRENGTH is .....life made me know myself.....my feelings....my smiles.
Now, with days passing by....I'm rediscovering myself.....my SMILES are back....my DREAMS are shaping up....and my HOPE...thats still there...held tightly as a part of my heart n soul.......These recollections remind me of a line said my Kahlil Gibran....."He alone is great who turns the voice of the wind into a song made sweeter by his own loving.." .........now i understand why Mother Teresa said- "PROBLEMS ARE GIFTS" :-)

I think about this life at times
And i always make a wish;
That through little things that come along
I fill some lives with bliss.
I am not sure why God chose me the one
The one to be loved and blessed
But i know that m here today
To change a life which is depressed.


Complications are a part of every relationship. Some people make things complex while others try to alter some of these weird complications into the toughest yet most wonderful smiles.
Think about your life-the way i think about mine today. There is something...............something so nice....so genuine... so beautiful that will make you feel-YES I AM LUCKY!!!
This is what i feel today... blessed to have some beautiful people in my life. People who complete me. But at times you need to do something to complete lives of such people. Today may be thats what i am expected to do........erase some complications in some relationships.......this might create heart breaks, infinite tears, malice in friendships but...............may be it wont spoil someone's life.....life which has been built on a castle of sand...........which can be blown away by the tormenting winds.
I remember reading a line in my English textbook............ "There are some people who have broken bodies but still they pick up the few remaining pieces and make a life out of them" It struck me......because it is true.....it is beautiful.......it is .....life. Everyone ........... believe me....each and every person in this world has to face one problem or the other. There'll be times when you'll go numb.........if it hasn't happened now....it will happen someday....am sure. Times when you'll feel that your life has become like the shallow waters of the river.........moments when even you'll break. But the most significant thing is that-whatever comes in your way.... no matter how tough it is...... it will make you STRONG. You'll learn to live ..........n more than that you'll learn to give life to someone.
Here i challenge you.........go ahead........do something right now to change someone's dense life............or even if you can't do much....you can always give someone those lovely moments of happiness by little deeds of kindness. God has the power to give and take life........but always remember that you have the power to change a life.