( Before I begin posting this blog....I just wanna tell everyone that right now i am not at all SAD....I wrote this blog long time back but never got a chance to post it....but today I wanna put it here....this blog is full of grief and losses but trust me ppl.....m not sad:-) )

After a very long time, I could gather the courage to sit down and write.... Whenever I write, I don't think a lot bcoz things come straight from my heart....donno why this time am thinking....I dont want to talk a lot about the tears, the losses, the sadness, the loneliness, the regrets, the helplessness.....that i encountered in the last few days...but the irony is that I can't even talk about genuine happiness bcoz even that has been missing. The moon and the stars in the night sky glitter like before but I can't see them smiling. The rays of teh sun still give me light but I can't feel their warmth. The soft and cool breeze still touches my face but I cant hear its whispers. The vast blue sky still makes me smile but I can't see GOD.

I'm flowing with the sea
I'm walking with the ways;
I'm smiling with the sky
And m passing these days..
But I feel something is missing
In the heat or in the frost;
And then I suddenly realize
That its me whom I've lost

I never wanted to lose myself and even today am trying to hold on to my real self really tight...but some parts have gone and the others are trying to break through....
Our desires, or dreams and our smiles don't touch us so easily because we need to realize their importance. This is because if we get all that we want so easily, then we'll lose ourselves even faster...Life has shown me something that very few people understand. I know there are thousands of ppl who are suffering and who are in pain...But I also know that everyone who feels pain is a very beautiful person...Every tear, every grief, every despair adds a beauty, a purity and a life in our real selves....
And that is why I accept the misery...n i hope that I'll touch the horizon...and I'll smile because someday I'LL FIND MYSELF AGAIN!!!

Though losses and tears broke me someday
But I still stood up to walk,
Every pain made me know who I am
And I could hear my soul talk...
Times that are tough are making me strong
I'm learning to dance in the rain,
And I know The sun will shine with hope
And I'll find myself again!!!