I want to write today...I miss some special people and some special things that I've lost in the course of time. I miss writing a diary. I think my diary kept me real close to my own self. Today, when I see myself...I know deep down its Me, the person I ve always been and the person I'll always be...but again just so unexpectedly i feel am parting ways with some part of what I am. I do not introspect much...introspection though important brings back some old, soft-hued memories. But, that shouldn't mean that I do what am doing...So, yes am writing a diary...a sorta public one right now coz I don't want to care much about the world's philosophy about me. Have heard a lot...everyone seems so judgmental...and that's what takes the love away. Relationships that take years of love, nourishment and care drift apart all of a sudden for no reason at all...happens with many of us and we all tend to think...What really caused this?
Oh yes I miss those old times...when the only things that lived were DREAMS...nothing else seemed as important and as visible too...We could always be hopeful coz we always knew...there's a long life and numerous opportunities ahead of us...but right now...a lot of it seems to have been lost...Right now what I think of is so much different...What caused this? May be everything that caused life to be what it is today. Every little moment adds something to your life...every little incident leaves back a mark, a memory, a lesson...Am thankful for all that has come my way (I guess don't have an option. Positivity makes life convincing for sure).
When today I tried to look back to some fragments of the past, I felt somewhat lost. Okay may be am not able to express myself too clearly coz of some restrictions, apprehensions and confusions, but yeah I sort of feel hurt... You cannot feel that or even understand coz its different for each one of use. We all have faced rough times. In fact we are constantly running away or catching up...we are rarely at peace. We all have imperfections, we all hurt the people we love and get hurt all the same. But, at the end of the day we LOSE...some smiles, some relationships, some love, some sweetness, some answers and some care. What we are left out with is a whole lot of memories...good and bad.
I'd just say from some personal experiences...don't be too judgmental about others lives, don't think too much...be yourself...be loving and be kind...everyone around means a lot to us and its gross to wait for the right time to realize that...
Look around...think about people who are a part of your life and you'll know that each of them holds an inimitable sense of significance in your life and in making you what you've become...
I'd end up here...rest is for you to think!

No matter where life has brought me today
No matter how much I've lost on the way,
There's still a life I've to unfold
And learn from what I've seen to this day...
I miss what's gone in the times left behind
May be that's how it was all meant to be.
What matters is the love and care I've found
And the dreams that still this heart tries to see...:)